it is thursday, it's sunny and actually warm out, but i'm staying in, i feel droopy, i feel disconnected. been off lately, don't know why. talk to my girlfriend, she gets upset for no apparent reason. my friend gets upset for no apparent reason. it's like i am saying one thing but others hear something different. like tyler durden is speaking for me. i don't get it.
it makes me want to shut down, break up with my girlfriend, stop talking to my friend, and just be alone. i don't know what the fuck is going on, i don't know what is wrong or why. i don't feel edgy, but people seem edgy to me, they seem to be getting upset over nothing, mistaking what i say, reading into shit i say.
i havent ridden a bike in a week or so, i need to go ride, i should have ridden today. i feel like i've lost any motivation to do anything, and i have no reason to.
i hope i get out of this strange murky morass.
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